June 13th, 2000

scotto monkeypulse

More of the same...

April seems to be determined to squiggle out of going to the doctor. I pushed a little today, mainly because I feel that she needs to see him. Latest excuse (of many) is : I want to wait until I get paid to go, I don't want you to pay for it. Heck, I told her, I spend hundreds of dollars on her for frivolous stuff, the important stuff, if you want, pay me back. Nope! No dice. I should just blow it off, but I'm concerned for her well-being. I also have to make an appointment with the doc about my bronchitis kicking up again... (Teach me to date a smoker. bleah.) Well, at least Newton is healthy. Actually, on thinking about it, I'm going to hit the doc sometime after friday, I'll call and make an appointment now. The best way to lead is by example, right? Hm. Here's some more wirting for those of you that don't care about the Scotto-soap opera. but first a mini-rant. My pal Alex moved to San Jose a few months ago. He assured me that we'd stay in contact, etc,etc. I saw him on AIM once and he was quite brief, then took off. From what I understand he's still in frequent contact with Heather, daily, I think. It sort of irks me, but it falls into my current situation in 'meatspace'. If a person moves away, and is not bound by blood ties, I lose contact with them. I don't know if I attract lazy friends & aquaintances, or if it's just the way things are, but I thought that friends kept in touch? anyhow, enough of that noise. I met Erin last night here, and she's a pleasant and witty girl, who shares my interest in gigglecam, and all things nifty like that.

And now:

Half-light
==========

If you took all the hours
I should have been asleep
but wasn't

And added in all the hours
I should have been awake
but wasn't

And multiplied by all the things
I missed, or messed up,
or did halfway
because of the above combination

You'd have wasted a lot of time
counting the cost for me
which is kind of ironic

After all, I've already paid the toll
for my time in shadow.
scotto monkeypulse

More of the same…

Originally published at The Scotto Grotto. You can comment here or there.

April seems to be determined to squiggle out of going to the doctor. I pushed a little today, mainly because I feel that she needs to see him. Latest excuse (of many) is : I want to wait until I get paid to go, I don’t want you to pay for it. Heck, I told her, I spend hundreds of dollars on her for frivolous stuff, the important stuff, if you want, pay me back. Nope! No dice. I should just blow it off, but I’m concerned for her well-being. I also have to make an appointment with the doc about my bronchitis kicking up again… (Teach me to date a smoker. bleah.) Well, at least Newton is healthy. Actually, on thinking about it, I’m going to hit the doc sometime after friday, I’ll call and make an appointment now. The best way to lead is by example, right? Hm. Here’s some more wirting for those of you that don’t care about the Scotto-soap opera. but first a mini-rant. My pal Alex moved to San Jose a few months ago. He assured me that we’d stay in contact, etc,etc. I saw him on AIM once and he was quite brief, then took off. From what I understand he’s still in frequent contact with Heather, daily, I think. It sort of irks me, but it falls into my current situation in ‘meatspace’. If a person moves away, and is not bound by blood ties, I lose contact with them. I don’t know if I attract lazy friends & aquaintances, or if it’s just the way things are, but I thought that friends kept in touch? anyhow, enough of that noise. I met Erin last night here, and she’s a pleasant and witty girl, who shares my interest in gigglecam, and all things nifty like that.

And now:

Half-light
==========

If you took all the hours
I should have been asleep
but wasn’t

And added in all the hours
I should have been awake
but wasn’t

And multiplied by all the things
I missed, or messed up,
or did halfway
because of the above combination

You’d have wasted a lot of time
counting the cost for me
which is kind of ironic

After all, I’ve already paid the toll
for my time in shadow.