October 2nd, 2015

scotto monkeypulse

mental health

stress day high.

my stress level all week has been extreme. panic attack this morning was peak. dunderheads hurting my work deadlines, shootings on the west coast breaking my heart, wife work stress, joaquin storm worries, commute issues, body / health issues, not to mention just free floating hullabaloo.

too many inputs, I was almost ready to call in sick and just hide under the covers this morning.  had a full-blown freak out as I was getting ready. couldn’t think clearly and just couldn’t calm down until I had a full-blown tantrum rage-fest with myself, screaming at my inability to get myself together in a timely way and running late, even though my ride was running later than I was.

I’m trying to find a better way to deal with my stresses and anxiety – the hardest part is getting it before it snowballs.

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